Brain vs. Heart

I hate the my brain tells me a million things, but it doesn't change what my heart tells me.

We've all been there. We've all had 'gut' feelings where we just felt that something amazing was going to come if we did a certain thing. Your brain might be telling you, "dude, fuck you, that's the most dumbass thing I've ever heard." You do it anyway. Then you realize you don't know where you would be if you hadn't followed your heart.

I'm currently in a little predicament. My heart wants to hold onto something that my brain is telling it to let go of. I've even tried to convince myself that I just needed to let it go, but something in me refuses to. I really don't know what to do about it. I've been 'going with the flow' for over a year now, and I've gotten nowhere. Yet, I won't let go of the feeling that someday, this could be something amazing.

She thinks I'm annoying, and it infuriates here when she hears me say it, but I mentally cannot let it go. I'm trying to. I really am. You can't make a heart feel something it doesn't, and you can't tell it to forget something it does. You don't love me, but I legitimately can't stop loving you. You've hurt me, made me cry, made me violent and pulled with my emotions, but I can't get enough of you.

My brain wants to move on, but my heart isn't about to do that any time soon.

-Brain vs. Heart-
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The Achievement Gap.

Woah, it's been forever since I've been on here. A couple hundred things have happened recently, and I'm going to share them all with you now. :) Grab a drink and put your feet up.

1.) A very close friend and I got into a fight and it practically ripped me apart. I said things I shouldn't have; she heard things she shouldn't have.
Feelings that shouldn't have been felt,
drinks that shouldn't have been consumed.
But we're growing close again, so I guess I can't complain.

2.) I have a strange hatred for fundraising. Speaking of that, if you have any awesome ideas, please shoot me a text about them! 419-305-6836.

3.) I've been drinking energy drinks and smoking cigarettes like I'm getting paid to. I wish I was getting paid to. I have energy drinks to keep me up, but they work so damn well that I can never sleep. I slept for two hours last night. Tonight, on the other hand, will be amazing. I'm going to be in bed by 10- maybe even 11. It will be voluptuous.

4.) I have no patience for people and their high school drama. Take it back to high school. Make the friends you want to, avoid the ones you don't. Life if simple. Step back. Live it up.

5.) The Achievement Gap is the biggest pile of bullshit I've ever had to discuss. We haven't improved the education system in 20 years. Let it go. If we don't have the means to fix it, maybe it shouldn't be fixed. I could go on about it forever, but I need to smoke.

-The Achievement Gap-
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